Whats next?

I've had some people ask me what's next?  Will you try again?  You can always have another child.

To be honest, I'm scared.  It's not very often you hear me say that but I'm scared.  Little things scare me right now.  One is even thinking of having another baby. 

For now I'm changing my focus.  My boys need me to be their mommy.  My husband needs me.  My family needs me.  And I need to figure out who I am, and what I'm doing here.

It's not alot, but who knew it would be this hard to figure out!  So that's where we are.  What's next for us?  Well... Christmas.  But we are taking it one day at a time.  Nothing crazy, nothing life changing, just one day at a time.